Wednesday, July 10, 2013

The 'F' Word

Why are we so hard on ourselves? I don't understand it. I read this article the other day: When Your Mother Says She Fat It was a HUGE wake up call. I am the worst at tearing myself down. For seeing myself as double my size in the mirror. It's stopping now. No more picking at flaws while I'm getting ready in the morning. It's time to look at the positives.

I never want my boys to look at their Mom and see a negative person, to see someone that doesn't have self respect or self confidence. I want them to be proud of me, to look at me and think wow she takes care of herself and my mom can do anything! It's true our children think we are amazing that we can walk on water, until they start noticing what we REALLY think about ourselves. How do they know what fat is until we introduce them to it? I mean obviously they will learn on their own eventually but I don't want their first introduction to the dreaded 'f' word from me...

I was sitting here tonight staring at my 36 week pregnant belly and thinking damn I am not looking forward to what this looks like after. But you know what? I'm totally looking forward to it. I will know that my body went through alot to bring the most beautiful miracle in the world; a new life a precious baby. Yes my skin will be loose and I won't feel the best, but I'm going to stay positive. Remember that it's temporary and enjoy the newborn stage instead of worrying about my body.

I think we all can be our own worst critic, lets try to change that.

But you better believe that sooner rather than later this mama is getting her ass back to the gym and on my fitness pal and getting her body back and better than it has been in years! ;) I know it won't be easy but it will be worth it.




  1. So true girl! Stay positive. :)

  2. Yes this is absolutely true... and girl if I can lose 70 lbs after Elle - you can too:)

  3. I love this post! It's so crazy the impact of what we say can have on a person (or little people-ie: kids). Pregnancy is a beautiful event, embrace can totally bounce back after the babe is born!

  4. I am not even worried about you, gorgeous thang!!

  5. I most certainly was my own worst critic. Back in my Cray Cray days(bulimia) I had HORRIBLE body dismorphia. I was slender with a muscular build but I couldn't see that. I saw a fat body. And when other people would comment on how slender and fit I looked I always felt like they were either crazy or lying to me. It's such a horrible place to be when we can't value ourselves and know our true self worth. I'm so proud of you that you can look down at your sweet lil belly full of baby and know that you are beautiful and it is a beautiful reason that you stomach stretched. That is a very healthy mental place to be. And, yes, when you have that cute lil nugget I have no doubt that you will get back in the game of health/fitness, and look/feel fantastic.