Weigh in Wednesday (On a Thursday)

Yesterday was a crazy busy day so I didn't get a chance to do my weigh in post but here I am now! I had a MUCH better week than last week.

 

Last Week: 189.4

This Week: 185.6

Difference: -3.8 lbs

Total Weight Loss: 39 lbs!

 

I stuck to plan hard core this past 10 days since Easter so I consider myself 10 days sober from sugar haha! But it's true sugar is like a drug to me and it feels so good to be off of it. I just all around feel better when I'm on plan physically and mentally. I also have more energy at the gym and in just chasing my kiddos around so its a win win. If I think of cheating again I need to remember how gross I feel after! It's so not worth it!

 

So this happened yesterday...I posted my before and CURRENTS on facebook. I'm pretty proud of myself for putting it all out there. Now to finish through to my goal!





Home Sick

About six years ago Ian and I moved to a small town (Rupert, ID) and I was so upset about the whole thing. We were leaving the bigger city (Boise) and going to an area where I knew absolutely no one. I was about to have my first baby and did not know what was coming. I was depressed and longed to be back in Boise. Fast forward to this past year, Ian and I moved back to Boise but now I desperately miss our life back in good ol' Rupert. Over the past 6 years I found so many friends that had kids close in age to mine and that were just really fun people. I now miss those people and how much joy they brought in my life. These people helped me so often when I was going through Cancer and would come at the drop of a hat to help me. These people blessed me with good meals and good conversation on my weakest of days. Most importantly, these people helped me find God when I so desperately needed him in my life.

 

Now that I'm back in Boise I enjoy the bigger city conveniences and all that it has to offer, but miss my little town of Rupert. I've gone to play dates here with an online mom's group I found but found that it is just not for me. I think because I compare them to the play groups and play dates that I had back "home." On a positive note, I did find a church that has a Mom's group that has been great. I have made a good friend through that and am blessed to have found it. I still feel lost here though. My kids aren't in school and we go crazy a lot of the days. But I know I just need to keep trucking along and we will slowly find our niche here. Some day we will get into the swing of things and for now I just need to thank God and know that this is where he wants us for this season of life... 

Weigh In Wednesday # 2

I'm just going to start this out with some hashtags to describe Easter weekend.

#candyoverload #diabetes #i'monlyhuman #reeseseggs

 

 

Last Weeks Weight: 189.6

This Week: 189.4

Difference: -.02

Total Weight Loss: 35.2

 

Whomp whomp whomp! Hardly a loss this week because I cheated Friday through Sunday of Easter weekend. I don't know what got over me but I couldn't control myself. Luckily since Monday I've been back on my optimal health plan and learned a hard lesson from this past weekend. I'm not going to sugar coat it but its over and their is nothing I can do about what happened. This week my hubby starts my eating plan with me so it will be a lot easier to be good on the weekends. I'm so excited for his results! We are going to have our bodies beach ready just in time for our Mexico vacation in June!

 

Sorry so short but I've gotta run! Watch for a BIG weight loss this coming week!
 

Weigh In Wednesday



Today is the big day. Weigh in day. I just changed my weigh in day from Monday's to Wednesdays so this weigh in is just from this past Monday the 21st so just a couple days of weight loss. Which is why it is so low!

 

Was: 190.6

Now: 189.6

-1 difference

24.6 pounds until goal.

 

Officially at 35 pounds lost and I'm feeling good about that. I can't believe I'm posting my weight. It's something I have always hidden from everyone including my husband, but not anymore. It is freeing in a way to just let go and say **** it! I have come such a long ways from January when I was tipping the scales at 224 pounds and so unhappy with myself in general. I couldn't fit into my clothes, I was wearing a size 18 jeans and even that was getting tight! I felt horrible, I napped when the kids did because I didn't have any energy. I had literally lost myself to my addiction. And honestly, going through my battle with Cancer just wore me out and I let myself go. I was depressed and down and out. I realize though now how lucky I am to be here and am seizing each day as a blessing and taking care of myself so I can hopefully be on this earth longer! Now I have control and have found myself again and it feels so good!

Proud of my weight loss!

Finding out what works for me has been key to my weight loss success. I have been following an optimal health eating plan and although I have had "cheats" 98% of the time I stay on course! It's the best I've ever done with a "diet" ever. One thing that helps is eating a protein and veggie rich dinner to keep me full for the night!

steamed chicken with mrs dash seasoning. Cauliflower "rice" with peppers and onions. YUM!

Well that's it for today. If you have any questions about my eating plan reach out to me on facebook (Annie Clark Kihara) or email me at kihara.annie@yahoo.com



Confessions of An Over Eater

Since I'm going to be sharing my weight loss journey with y'all I thought I better write about the reason why I became over weight in the first place. Getting down to the nitty gritty here as much as I don't want to I feel like its an important part of my story.

Food is my comfort. When I feel bad I want to eat. When I'm done eating I feel worse, so I would eat some more then feel even more bad. It's a vicious cycle. I've wrote before my favorite thing to eat was sugar. I loved all forms of it, and having two kids around the house who wanted sugary snacks didn't help with trying to keep it out of the house.  I knew I was an addict when I would find myself hiding my stashes of goodies. I would hide them in my car, nightstand, closet shelves behind things. Then when I would want to consume them I would hide that too. One day my hubby came into our room one evening and found me in the corner eating one of my kids chocolate bunnies from Easter last year. I looked like a deer in headlights when he found me. I was ashamed. At that point I wasn't ready to quit though, I was going through my Cancer treatments and "needed" my food for emotional support. So I kept eating sugar and gaining weight throughout my treatment. Of course the steroids I was on didn't help, but I could have controlled my eating better. However, I can't go back and change the past so I have to just move on.

Flash forward to November of 2015. One of my best friends was having success with a nutrition program and losing the last of her 100 lbs to lose! She looked amazing and she felt even better. I was just coming out of my transplant and wanted desperately to have her success. I followed her journey and that was the inspiration I needed to get started. So December 28th, 2015 I made that commitment to myself and began. It was hard but I was successful in it. I followed my meal plan to a tee and lost almost 6 lbs the first week. I've been continuously losing since then and feel great! My energy levels are up and I'm wearing my smaller clothes again. My weightloss goal is 59 lbs and I've lost 34 of it so I will be documenting the last 25 lbs! I am working out as well 5 days a week and weight lift 4 of those days. I have to confess yesterday I had a slip up and ate some frozen yogurt. I am so mad at myself for "relapsing," but am back on the wagon again. I weighed myself this morning and the scale was up 3 lbs (water retention from my sugar laden cheat) so we will see tomorrow (Monday), what the scale says after a day back on plan. I will post every Wednesday my current weight and how much I've lost for the week as well. Good ol' Weigh in Wednesday!

What's Going On?!

Whew...it's been quite a while since I've done an update so here we go!  I had a scan back in February and it showed all my spots where I had Cancer previously gone but a new lymphnode lighting up under my right arm pit where it had never been before! I was devastated to say the least. They scheduled me for a biopsy to remove the lymphnode right away and I was preparing for the worst to hear the dreaded words "It's back." Thank the Lord though that wasn't what I heard...the lymphnode was benign! I am officially in remission. However, since my type of lymphoma is so aggressive I will be getting scanned every 3 months for the next 5 years. I am also receiving an immunotherapy drug called brentuximab that specifically targets Hodgkin's lymphoma cells and not normal cells so if their are any cancer cells left in me they will be obliterated. I get that infusion every 3 weeks until this coming December. Happily, my hair is growing back and guess what? It's curly now! I never had curly hair before so I'm sporting a bit of an afro but I am just grateful to have hair! The hubby and I are taking a trip to Puerto Vallarta just us to celebrate remission!

My curly hair!

Momming has not been easy lately. Little Jack has been giving me a run for my money. He is extremely moody and doesn't want to sleep. Typical two year old problems! We're also potty training so that's been fun. He is pretty good with "number one" but going "number two" usually at nap time when he is in a pull up. I just have to keep telling myself that we will get there. He starts pre school in September and needs to be potty trained by then so we got time. Hunter starts Kindergarten in September and will be doing all day kindergarten so I'm sure that will be an adjustment. We decided to go the all day route because he needs the extra stimulation and enrichment classes he will get. He is too smart for his own good sometimes so this should help with his boredom!

Last but not least is my weight loss situation. Before I was diagnosed I was in the middle of a weight loss journey losing 30 lbs and feeling great! After being diagnosed and starting treatment my over eating and emotional eating got out of control and I gained it all back plus some. I have a serious sugar addiction and couldn't control it. Even though I knew that Cancer loves and feeds on sugar I couldn't get off of it. Cakes, cookies, candy you name it I would eat it and not care until after when I felt bloated and sick to my stomach. I had to make a change.... a big one. So this New Year I dialed in my nutrition, cut out sugar and have lost 34 pounds in a couple of months. I have 25 more to go until I'm at goal but until then I will be updating my progress on here including before and during pics.

Well this is what has been going on lately... I plan on keeping up with the blog more because I do love the outlet it creates for me. So look for another post SOON detailing my weight loss and what exactly I'm doing that's working for me!

xoxo,

Annie