Here are the first two "installments" of my weight loss journey:
Alright, I will make this last part short and to the point. I left off where I was beginning not to care about being healthy or how I looked. I was just focusing on being a mom. I didn't care about how I looked. I was struggling big time. I hated trying to pick out things to wear. I wanted to just wear yoga pants all the time. It was a struggle trying to find the loosest shirt to hide my tummy or Pants that actually fit...and I seriously hated wearing spanx! I hated avoiding taking pictures with my son or hubby! I so badly wanted pictures with them but did not want to see how fat I was. I avoided having to see people I haven't seen in a while. There is no way I would look at the scale...no freakin way.
Flash forward to June 2012. I found Mama L's blog and loved it. I was amazed at how she could work full time with TWO kids (and one was a baby) and still fit in time to work out and take care of herself all while looking cute. That was it. No more excuses for me. I started with working out and did that for a month with no weight loss. Then I looked at my eating. It was AWFUL. I was taking too many calories in and working out wasn't even helping. I decided to change my eating habits and that was one of the best things I have ever done. End of July I joined a group that was doing a weight loss challenge (Mama L's fit camp). It changed my life. I eat healthier. I run. I work out twice a day sometime. All while being a mommy, wife and working (part time).
I am still at the beginning of my weight loss journey. However, I am so proud of myself. My confidence is building and I FEEL so much better. People are noticing and it feels AH MA ZING! I am nervous yet excited to look at the scale these days (I only weigh once a week).
All I can end this with is that you really have to WANT this to do it. I tried TONS of times to lose weight and NOTHING worked. It was me though. I wasn't ready. But now I am. Do I still fuck up? Yep. At LEAST a few times a week. But its okay...it's all about jumping right back in and going for it. You don't have to be perfect you just have to take care of yourself...Something finally clicked for me, and I'm still trying to figure out what that is. Right now all I got to do is keep going day by day.
December 2010. Right after having my precious baby boy.
Here is a more recent picture. Last week (Sept 2012) Holding my friends beautiful new baby boy.
Great post girl... this group has made things click for me too and I'm so glad we're on the journey together! I've avoided photos and friends too and that is just no way to live... gotta change that asap!
ReplyDeleteAwesome post Annie! I can totally identify with everything you're saying. I'm so glad you're inspiring others with your story!
ReplyDeleteOMG girl that FB picture ecard is all too true for me. Great post:)
ReplyDeleteIsn't crazy how meeting one person can really knock you into gear? Mama Laughlin did that for me, too. I love that girl. I'm so happy for you, Annie. Only bigger and better things to come from here. :)
ReplyDeleteMy youngest son (no more babies) is 6 months old. I feel more gross now than I did when he was first born! This post is a great one...I feel all the same things you do! I have just started my weight loss journey....I feel very overwhelmed at the amount I need to lose. It's hard not to give up when you have so far to go. Ever feel like this?
ReplyDeleteHi Kristen!
DeleteI know exactly how you feel. I feel like that a lot of the time. I started with a small goal of 12.5 lbs. I know its an odd number but it's half of 25. I've now lost 17.6 and my next goal is 20. After that my goal will be to get to 25 and then so on. To me that makes my weight loss more attainable. Feel free to email me at kihara.annie@yahoo.com.
Thanks for visiting girl! :)